exhaust

Huff, it’s my first time feeling exhausted if every week I have to go home. Jatinangor – Depok had to be reached in 4 hours. Many reasons caused me hated to go back to Depok this week especially. I had to cancel my appointment to study together with Hadi and friends, which in a same way as me, studied regularly to reach our goal having a study in our each dreamy campus.

Next, it make me irk being in one full seated bus. I can’t enjoy the journey because surely I had to sit near the way people toing in the bus. And that time I had to bring my laptop and it made my backpack was so heavy.

I don’t know why my parents still worrying about my life. Weren’t they still thinking that I’m a little child? Yes I know, they so worried if I had a bad society here. They don’t permit me to go having and enjoying my holiday in the day I should take a holiday. Is that wrong if I want to have my holiday in Nangor, oh maybe because Nangor don’t have any place and I decide to take holiday in Bandung is a wrong alternative?

But if I’m home, is that any advantages I take? I think it’s just the same. Okay, here my nutrient is over fully because I can eat 3 times a day. Is that the thing I want? I want to avoid eating regularly, precisely. But here, my grandma’s always cooking a French fries for me. I don’t want to actually cause I’ll be fat here :(

And don’t you think it looks like I waste the money, like I’m a rich person everyweek I can go home. Why do you all give me permission to take a college here if it should be like this, no trusting and full of restrictiveness…

Just feeling like a robot, do the command and don’t have the opportunity to refusing. :( tired of this all~ If only I were permitted to drive the car to be the mount for me to reach Jatinangor, it won’t be so exhausted like this, that should be so comfortable. But in fact I’m not a princess and don’t have to be a spoiled child, so my father don’t ever let me drive the car (except I can do his dream and be a doctor. Obigno! I can’t, won’t and don’t want to)