POSTING FINNALY

Yes yes yes, finally I can spend time posting in my Blog
It’s been long time enough I didn’t ever write again, why? Yeah. Of course I was busy, hha what a lot of rot you talk buddy~
First I just wanna apologize that I’ve thorwn you out of my mind, Mablo. I’m so sorry..
Actually many things happened and of course with the limited brain I have, I cant remember well all those things. Hahahaha. This is bad! But I can show you all what I’ve done in recent day.
This week I didn’t go back to my house because I think it’ll be useless cause in Wednesday, I’ll meet them (my family) again in the airport. Yeay! But, there’re so much affraidnes and worried from my parents that I would do something NAUGHTY. Bandung, yeah, of course for the ancient parents they would give more attention to their children because there’re so many bad issues spreading that in Bandung you can have a free life, and my parents worried about that. They thought that I will go outside and back home late night or even back till the pre-dawn.
But, there’re no evils in my head, so eventhought I was in Dago on Saturday night, I was just doing nothing~ yeyeyeye! Say horay to my parents that I didn’t go everywhere there. That’s what they want. Be a nice girl kiddy..
Every time I try to accept this situation, my mind thinks that ‘hey hello I’m not a kidy nor an adult. Give me a space to try everything what I want and with a faithfulness I have I’m sure I wont doing something wrong so that I can learned to be mature.
17 year-old-girl? What dyu think about this number of age? Childish maybe yes maybe no. I’m between them. I still cant realize that my parents still have an overprotected to me, altought in fact that’s good! Parents should take care of their children even they were far each another.
Ah, forget it. If I think about it, my mind will show the devil in my left side who whisper me to hate my parents about their protective manner, and in my left side, that will appear an angel who whisper me everything what my parents did that’s due to make me walk in a right way of course.

Then, about my college.
I still wanna shout “I HATE COLLEGE!”
It’s not likely what people said about it. The individualistic are too high for some people. And honestly till now I can’t find a truly best of the best friend I had here. Yeah, don’t sighing too much.. Let it flow, and let the time eliminate whoever that bad for me.
I felt something change from myself. Maybe I become an extrovert person. LONESOME. So different with my previous. Hmm. How should I change it? What a pity of me if I cant cursive and make myself busier than ever and cant make friends with a lot of heads here..

I should back to my self before. A friendly with a smile open wide in my face that I showed to everyone. A fussy girl that often to make a funny and silly jokes or even flirting nerd boys. Yes! That’s me if I looked back. Then where are those things? No smile hanging every time in my face. That’s erased.
I think I wanna bact to my High School life. Begin the school from 7 to 3, the teacher that still want to help the students, my chairmateeeeeee! VEROOOO I miss you so so soooooo bad :( I need a chairmate, at least I have a close friend and I need a solidarity whole the students in my class :((( miss my break time, went to the canteen and bought Bakso or nasi kare or gorengan bude or soto and drink nutrisari lemon :((((( having a gossip with the class, disturbing my friend who was studying seriously, sleeping in the class, OH MY GOD I MISS THAT MOMENT!

For the lesson, I think my ability was good enough. But, eventually I’ve learned English since I was in the Elementary, I cant get the perfect score for all lessons. Hahahaha. Am I stupid?
How easy my parents ask me to get the 4.0 IP for this semester. Haha crazy thoughts. I’m not as smart as a Native. I don’t wanna spend lot of time here, Mom :( it’s not my dream. But still, my dream is too far to be reached out. I forgot Mathematics, Physics, Biology and Chemistry. I forgot all that have been taught from my teacher in High Scool and NF. How can I pass the examination next year?
Mid test was passed by; my score is neither good nor bad. Hmm, don’t ever stuck and just stand here, I’ve to run and jump high to the highest willing of myself. YEAH! Semangat..
Thanks to Vania for accepting me sleep a night in your kosan. Thanks too for Gigi who help me install my laptop and my BIG BIG FAMILY! for your ATTENTION to me. (grrrrgrgrrrr -.-)
AND the last sorry to Cindy, I often let you alone sleep in our room =s